Femme fatale

Sincere apologies

Terribly sorry that I've (clearly) been neglecting this space. Because I've started a new one - yes, a much more personal blog where everything is 100% raw and real. Maybe you've found it, maybe you've not - I'm not telling yet. Just not yet.

But I will be keeping this space for a bit - for memories' sake. Then once I fix my desktop (yes, months and my desktop has not been fixed. I swear I should be paid to procrastinate), perhaps I'll re-vamp this into a fashion-ish type of blog? Which would most likely revolve around the outfits I wear, my daily adventures etc.

In the mean time, stay safe and sound and once again, I am truly, terribly sorry for being such a bad blogger and to leave this space so goddamn empty. x

What I have been doing lately

Eat. Sleep. Repeat.

Take me there

Bonjour!

Pardon me, for not blogging frequently and forgive me for being missing in action. My reasons? I haven't found any inspiration to blog, occasionally experiencing a writer's block. Furthermore, my english vocab/ grammar is getting the best of me (thanks to the long holiday). Plus, I'll be enrolling in a polytechnic, which means there won't be any GP/ english lessons which would make things a whole lot worse. So for the remaining holiday I have, I will try to read the papers and books (unfortunately they don't interest me as much as they used to in the past - shit, another tell-tale sign my english is deteriorating).

School would start in April and I have chosen Mass Communications, and I hope that this choice I have made is right, and would be a stepping stone to what I would like to do in the future (fashion). People are wondering why I didn't choose a fashion-related course right now, it's because my family would forbid me to take up ANYTHING related to fashion (they don't think it'll get me the income or even get me far, also I am afraid to specialize in just an area, because what if I don't want to work in the fashion industry just yet? or can't get a fashion-related job? So yes, I've taken the general media route, hoping to gain some experience before stepping into the fashion industry.

Do you think I made the right choice? Guess only time will tell.

PS any book recommendations? ;)

x

F*ck that shit, I wanna be like her

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Last day of 2011

How time flies - it felt like yesterday that 2011 had just started, but today we're all preparing to usher and welcome another brand new year. 2011 was the year where so much have happened - I've learnt from experiences, grown distant from people, grown closer to others etc and it has been amazing, no matter how bad the year has been.

We all go through ups and downs everyday in our lives, we just have to embrace our mistakes and pick ourselves up when we fall.

We are only young once, and we only have one life, so live your life to the fullest, because I'd rather regret things I've done than to regret not doing things.

Have a wonderful day today and I will see you all next year. x

Hello

How have you been? It's been long, and I haven't been posting lately and regularly because I've been occupied with my part time job, and that my desktop is down (I'm blogging and surfing the net with my brother's Macbook). Speaking of my desktop being down, it's been down for a week or two, and I still haven/t fixed it because I'm such a tech noob. I think I gotta dismantle the CPU and change the hard drive or something but I'm not entirely sure...

A side note: I'll be travelling to Jakarta, Indonesia with my friends this Saturday and will be back Wednesday...I'm pumped!

Craving satisfied

Work last night was so fun, although tiring. Made some new friends. The perk of working night shift? We got to try out some of the dishes :-)

I think night shift > afternoon shift. Night shift again tonight and I'll be seeing the same co-workers I worked with last night so....YAY!!!

All I want for Christmas is...

We're 16 days away from Christmas day and it doesn't hurt to dream of what one would like for Christmas, wouldn't it?

Here is my annual Christmas wish list for 2011...*drum rolls*

1. DVDs of all the seasons of Supernatural, because I'm in love with Sam and Dean Winchester

2. Black converses, as I would like to have a converse shoe collection and what better way to expand it by purchasing one every year (it makes it even more special)

3. A fixed computer. I've not fixed up my computer by purchasing a new hard drive for a week now (yes, I've lived a week without a computer and it is horrible...)

4. At least 12 points for O level (please? I've been pretty nice this year)

5. A Nerf gun - no explanation needed

6. Books, any interesting ones, just throw it at me. If they are terribly good I will love you for life. Speaking of books, I've yet to read George Martin's A Game Of Thrones which I bought before the O level...

7. Sweaters. God, I am such a sweater lover...I don't care if the weather is awfully hot and humid in Singapore - my love for sweaters will never die

8. Varsity jackets - would like to collect them like how I'm collecting converses

9. Ray bans (still thinking whether I should because knowing the person I am...I'll most likely break it)

10. To meet the Shaytards family and Charles and Allie from CTFxC (I watch their daily vlogs daily, religiously)

Last but not least...

11. Jay McGuiness...or any hot/ cute single British/ American guy for all that matters. Or just Jay, that'll definitely do ;)

The ultimate chocolate orgasm

Straight from the heart: part one

Honestly speaking I am afraid. Deathly afraid, of the future. I know I've talked about this a couple of times, but it's something that is bound to happen sometime or another and it's pretty much inevitable. You can't actually stop and go back in time or whatsoever.

What I've learnt, as the days goes by and you grow older you have so much more responsibilities and shit to deal with...which obviously sucks but everyone has to go through. Bills, payments, housing, mortgage, travel all that you gotta deal with.

Maybe I'm starting to worry a lot because I've started working as a part timer. God, even working part time is already tough, and I don't even know how I'm gonna pull through being an adult working full time and being committed for years. Before landing myself a job, I still have to go to college etc and get myself educated and prepared.

College fees are getting more expensive and so are tuition fees. People with degrees find it difficult to get jobs. In this situation, I have absolutely no clue how the hell I will be able to survive in this world, where money makes the world go round. Times like this when I wish that things were much simpler, and that we have nothing to worry about, but that's impossible.

I'm just so deathly afraid....

(to be continued)

I only miss you when I'm breathing

Starting work on Monday, excited yet nervous at the same time! Definitely can't wait though, beats having to rot at home from boredom or spend tons of $$$ shopping because I'm bored doing nothing at home. With a part time job, I can gain experience, earn a lil' money and kick the habit of hardcore, senseless shopping (well, sort of) - it's like killing two birds with a stone :-)

We'll be a dream

If you're looking for fashion inspiration etc, check out my tumblr, if you wanna see what goes on (visual-wise) in my daily life, feel free to follow me on instagram...or there's also my "photography" blog. And... you can probably tell that I've not been posting regularly and such because I've got no motivation at all, and because I'm in the midst of finding jobs that are favorable (none yet, bloody hell). Keep your fingers crossed for me and wish me luck! See you later, alligator! x

Prom looks

My school's graduation night's just around the corner - Monday! Got the most perfect dress...and an iPhone 4S :-)

Words hurt

The words you said to me, I don't know if you know, but it'll forever be etched in my mind, because those words hurt me, like a knife digging into my skin.

Disconnected

I'll admit that I don't have the best self-esteem.for I drown in my own low self-esteem, thinking that I'm not good enough and wished that I could be better or perhaps someone else. God, how I wished I was someone else so bad. I'm not like others, with so much confidence that it covers up their flaws. Those people are like sun rays, forever cheery, spontaneous and all that. All that I am, but I'll never show because I'm afraid. I will never catch the eye of someone on the streets, unless I was wearing something bizzare, That's why I choose to distance myself from everyone, because I'm afraid they'll not like me because they've realized I'm not good enough or somesort.

via tumblr

Inspiration: gold forever

11:11

I'm back! Well sort of, I've just got 2 papers left before I'm finally free for a good month or so. I really can't wait for it to be over, because I've got so much in plan, so many things I wanna do (keep on eye on that!) and hopefully will execute the plans. Tomorrow's a Saturday and I hope that you guys will have a fabulous weekend. x

PS: It's 11/11/11 today, I missed 11:11 but I don't think we neeed to allocate a special day to make wishes and wish it would come true, for we are the ones who can make our own wishes come true, so why not seize the day and make the best of it everyday eh?