It feels so alive, yet so dead

I am detesting the holidays.

1. It makes your brain go dead cuz you usually wouldn't start on your holiday assignments till the last week/ minute.
2. You don't have to think much.
3. You usually sit and stare at the computer screen (or telly screen) for hours cuz your don't have anything or you don't know what to do.
4. You have this idea that you'll have time to complete all holiday assignments but then you'll start to panic when you realize you only have little time left.
5. Stupid holiday homework.
6. Stupid only-4-week-break.

I HATE THE HOLIDAYS CUZ ITS SO SHORT AND THERE'S SO MUCH WORK TO BE DONE. >:(

There's not a single word that can describe my feeling now

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How I'm feeling right now. Do you know why?
BECAUSE DEBORAH IS COMING BACK TO VISIT FOR A MONTH FROM THE STATES!!!!!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY! But the scary thing is that, I'm always happy and yay-ing and jumping for joy when my close friends who migrated somewhere else comes back to Singapore, but when they are in Singapore already, I don't know what to talk about or what to do. It's really.. awkward. Not just really, it's VERY VERY VERY TREMENDOUSLY AWKWARD. :(


But please, continue to help me yay away. The only thing I do not want to be jumping for joy for is my Chinese tuition that resumes later. Ugh. Oh and that I really can't sleep these days. Sleepless nights, like trying to sleep at 12 but ending up sleeping at 1 or 2 and waking up @ 8 or 9 plus with a terrible headache and the want to get more rest but the inability to close my eyes and doze off again. It's insomnia I tell you.

Peek-a-boo

altamiranyc

Fear in your eyes

I tell myself: It's okay, I'm barely 14 yet, wait till I'm 15 or 16, then the troubles start rolling in, and my fashion appetite becomes larger and more obsessive.. That's what I'm scared of

Every second counts cuz there's no second try

Ok my legs are really sore cuz I've been walking for hours, days and weeks to find the perfect dresses for my uncle's wedding in july (which means I'll be skipping school for a day or so) from funan to raffles city (cos my brother talior made his suit somewhere around funan) and back again. I'm officially saying that I AM IN LOVE (like how I'm in love with the union jack bedspread above!). :-) You guys ought to know with whom/ what/ whatsoever. I'm gonna scribble it down in my diary, ha ha. Tomorrow I am going to the dentist, then my gramma will leave us in town while she heads to her friend's place for the latter's daughter's baby's first month till two-ish. Freedom! Now I feel like I'm 18 and I can do anything I want.. with only twenty in my wallet. :o