There's a million words but it's never enough

Today is the Eve of a new year. Tomorrow? A brand new year. A brand new start. A brand new set of worries, mistakes and regrets.

I can't believe that another year is over. It felt like yesterday when I stepped into 2010, starting my secondary 3 life. GESS Carnival, Japan Trip...all that birthday cake smashing.

To be honest, I don't want 2011 to come. I'm afraid to lose everybody, because right now I know for sure that two of my best friends are heading overseas to pursue their studies after O level.

Its just that.. I'm afraid what the future might bring. What if people I'm close too now aren't going to be as close to me in the future? What if I never keep in contact with anyone ever again after secondary school? (I suck so bad in keeping in contact with people).

Plus what or who will I grow up to be? What course/ career would I pursue in the end? Who will I meet?  Will my dreams/ goals take flight and soar, or will they crash and burn? Will I have a stable life, or will I have to work forever to pay debts/ rents? Will I ever meet that special someone?

I wish I had answers. I wish someone would come from the future and perhaps at least assure me a stable life and that I'll be able to keep my circle of friends. But right now, all I can do is fear and keep my mind from exploding with so much questions I have in store for the future!

To welcome the new year, I will be partying at this new year party I'll be attending with my family. On a side note, I wish you all a very Happy New Year.

See you in 2011!
xoxo

Too much

I've been thinking A LOT lately...about my studies, friends and the future. More to come on New Year Eve/ the new year (in 4 days!)..I'll probably be blabbering about my fears and all that shit. So if you're interested, watch this space :-)

PS I've also been listening to Example A LOT . God dammit he's sooooooo good! A legend, I'd say. Plus he's English /wink wink/ rofl

Sticks and stones may break my bones

I'm experiencing a really bad gastric pain as I'm typing this, so forgive me if I start slurring like this: yhagifdiudajhdahhahahahaaaoucchhhhh.

I woke up at 11am today, feeling as helluva tired as ever, but just in time for brunch and some lazing around before I headed for choir practice. After that was dinner > home, which as I was walking across the road with Sophia, I felt someone tap me on the shoulder which scared the bejeezus out of me because I thought I had either 1. dropped something or 2. did something illgeal unknowingly...but no I didn't and I thought it was a random dude but it turned out to be someone I know :)

Anyway there's gonna be practice tomorrow too, which after that is our choir BBQzzzzz. So exciting!

Me without you won't do

I couldn't find his CDs (Won't Go Quietly/ Kickstarts) at HMV :(

Example

Damnnnnnnnnnnnn. He's hot in the scraggly-English-guy type of way and don't get me started on his green eyes ♥